My Closure. Your Closure. Our Closure February 29, 2008

Almost 3 years of contemplating and blaming everything that could be blamed, I finally manage to put the everlasting mind boggling issue to a rest.

I got my closure. I am finally able to let go. Let go. I did move on about 2 years back but I didn’t let go. I don’t blame anyone but myself for not letting go. Everything that happened didn’t have a complete fullstop to it. Everything was left hanging. Hence, I refuse to let go.

But now, I have my closure.I have that one full stop to complete all the sentences. Nothing was left hanging. IWe manage to put it back to where it should be and where it belong. Thank you my dear. I appreciate that you wanted a closure just as bad.

I find it damn difficult to keep quite for 5 bloody mins, so imagine how I feel after keeping quite about this for three bloody long years. I chose to shut up and it hurt so bad. You chose to shut up too and I am sorry that I didn’t know you were hurting just as bad. But thank God its over.

I told you I’m sorry, thank you for forgiving me and I do forgive you. We have our closure. The closure we needed. The closure that will embark us to a fresh beginning after many horrified endings.

To My Newly Found Friend,

We stop and admit that we were wrong (for each other)
And never change our mind
It is great that we both strong
To leave ‘us’ behind

For every moment that I have lived with you
I won’t change any moment
There is no running away that a part of me is you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks almost everything I do

Don’t look back as we have new directions
I loved you once, but I didn’t have any directions
You’re still apart of everything I do
You will always be on my heart like a tattoo.

From, The Bottom of My Heart

P/s the closure that worth 3 years of ambiguity

post-exam. fullstop. February 28, 2008

Not a feeling in my chest
Baby, I’m feeling no stress
I’m too fly to be depressed

Go on girl

Munggen Theory will not be tested for exam. February 27, 2008

I keep on telling myself that I am too fly to be depressed. I freaking screw my store management paper, well the part that i freaking screw will eventually cost me 21 marks. So yah, I can jolly well kiss my one and only chance to get A/distinction good bye. DAMN.

The stressed-up version of Su, Elias & Me

To prevent myself from procrastinating I’ve decided to study out. Well, with my new mugging buddy the oh-so-gorgeous SU and the denial-mat Elias. yes elias the cock. Oh yah and that gorgeous afro dude Hafidz or Hafiz. Su and I just cloud not believe the fact that Elias the cock have finish revising for fashion merchandise paper. Like helloooo since when is he more hardworking than us. Oh well he is going to try his luck copying anyway so yah not a biggie for us.

I can not deny the fact that I am pretty disturbed about this whole Munggen Theory thingy. Elias and Hafidz the afro came up with this disturbing theory of picking girls up. It goes something like this:
1.woooo (get excited over a girl)
2.chocchock (try their luck to get to knw them)
3.Bungus (seal the deal)
4.Makan(exploit her)
5.Buang (get rid)
and then continue the cycle all over again.

I am totally fine if they get excited whenever they talk about all Chinese chics (mungens) and how they will droll and all over them. I’m perfectly fine if they are attracted to some one of a different race. I mean I don’t deny that I also do fine Chinese dude like Eddee, Edwin, Khaiwee rather appealing. I don’t question their attraction. But I get disturbed cos they come to a level whereby its like a fetish and the worse part, they will talk about all their fantasy with them. Esp stage number 4. I shall quote what elias said,  ”when you bring home rice you don’t just leave it a side”, “you can find my i/c number when pull down the panties” yada yada yada…….ew ew ew

As for me you wanna talk about a grp of girls you like go ahead! I know we all have inner needs. But if you gonna talk about how you are going to exploit them…….Like hell no! You are damn right I am feminist! make it like your boy’s talk or something man. Don’t talk about this type of issue in-front of me and su. Its basic courtesy and respect towards women of all ages pinhead! Plus they think I am j-e-a-l-o-u-s because they are not chocchoc-ing me. That’s why I get so fired up when they talk about exploiting mungens.

In my defend, oh please honey I rather have a real man coming after me rather than a group of boys who are having hormonal issues. Pussy ass niggas think too highly of themselves. If only they know that the size of a dick is not the only way to define a man. (okay i think this part is a major point elias need to learn not the rest of the mungen group) There are other factors such as respect, humbleness, humour etc. I think the reason why I put up with them is because they are friends and I have to excuse them because they are going thru some sort or puberty stage.

Oh plus I don’t deny I have a soft spot for the afro dude because he told me he aspire to be a pediatrician (for that I have tons of respect for him). Damn! I think if only he is not into this whole mungen theory, Su and I will consider him….Not qutie bad of a catch. Studying bio-med, pure malay, smart, funny, ambitious, nice to talk to and kinda cute. But due to the mugen thoery we shall not even think of him as a potential ‘it-boy’ for the two (me & su) of us.

Su and I conclude that this group of guys will make good friends and funny bunch people to hang out with because they are brutally honest about their feelings/desire but dating them? Nah its okay…

Come back when you are a lot more MAN-LY honey.

party like a rock star February 24, 2008

Interested? It will be fun. Trust me.

Su with a Snipple, Elias is a cock & Damn Afro February 22, 2008

So much for hardcore studying! I end up with hardcore pain in my mouth due to unclear.

Okay ‘hardcore’ sound hideously wrong. Let me rephrase that.

So much for hardcore intense studying! I end up with hardcorean intense pain in my mouth due to unclear.

Yup a lot betta Ainnie!

Talking with Su and Elias made me realise that POLITICS is not really a topic an average teenager would talk about or even understand. Here I am talking about the America 2008 Election with much interest and passion. Here come Su who is only interested in the juicy details and Elias who can only skeptically say “Obama wld lose because he is black”. Like how skeptical is that! This is the 21st century damn it what kind of slavery mentality is that! I can bet that Elias have no clue that this black guy did graduate from HARVARD LAW SCHOOL! A place where people like us can only dream about. Oh well it is Elias we are talking about here what do I expect. (him bragging abt how big his….and that’s about it) He is after-all a slave to his…! (well in a funny way not sickly)

I intend to blog about politic today but I think I will totally change my mind and postpone till I feel a lot smarter. Well after hanging out with Elias I some how feel that my intelligence drop by 20 pts or even more(because of what we were talking about)! He kept on joking about the different size of “cock” (like how he like to call it: COCK) and by the end of the day, Su and I could not do anything else but join him joking about the same topic or more like teasing each other about it. TRUST ME when I say that we (I mean su and I. I hope!) were not a bit proud joking/teasing/talking about the “oh-so-dirty/active/productive-long-thingy”.

So much for Elias and his cock. Then came the perk of my day. (ooh yeaaah) I meet a guy with an Afro who is oh-so-cute/smart/sexy/funny! Call me skeptical but I didn’t expect an Afro dude can be all that. Seriously. May be I am exaggerating. But I did some how find him rather appealing.Sorry wrong, I mean really really appealing. However (oh boy!!) the sad thing is that he have this whole band thingy going on that is kinda…….BOY-BAND-ish! Like hellooooo wake up man! This is the 21st century the era of boy-band worshipping is sooo overdue. Damn, too good to be true! Oh did I mention that he is gorgeous?!

DAMN! 

Advertising Persian February 20, 2008

In the midst of preparing for my advertising exam and staring at Monty. This came to mind…

I think Iranian Persian are cool people. I just found out that Persian are not Arab! My mistake to think that all Middle Eastern are Arabs!

I think Persians (in general) are natural born businessman. They have intelligently and successfully build their own brand. They “invent” something then they put their name at the end. What a theory rite?! You know the “just-in-case” people might forget kinda stuff. See! how strategic is that! Now no one can copy.

Don’t you realise that if you were to sell Persian product it will so damn easy to do advertising. Contemporary method of advertising is not all about selling. Its about IMC. Integrated Marketing Communication. Its something like sending out one massage and use various form of communication tool/style to give out that massage.

Okay let say you wanna sell Iran. It can be for tourism, selling product made in Iran etc. Dont you realise that its easy to come up with major selling ideas.

Major selling idea

1. Create Brand Image- Have an identity. So “Iranian” might not sound nice or hard to complement. CHANGE IT. How about PERSIAN. Don’t you think its more beautiful, mystical or even exotic. That’s the kind of image you wanna portray when people accuse you of having a nuclear program.
2. Inherent Drma- in my lecture notes say that inherent selling idea focus on consumer benefit with an emphasis on the dramatic element in expressing them.

   
   I’m trying to sell Persian cat
3. Positioning- In between Iraq and Palestine.
4. Unique Selling Idea- Something that others can not offer. Persian, like I mention above sound beautiful, mystical an exotic. How to best communicate that idea. Persian Woman eg. the one and only Masumeh Ebtekar. Persian Carpet no example but if you are in Singapore go take a walk at Arab Street. Persian Cat eg. my Monty. Many many more that I cant think of rite now.

   

The ‘M’ Word February 19, 2008

I realise how African-American (or prolly any black dude whose ancestor came from Africa) can get pissed, hurt or feel insulted when you call them to the ‘N’ word. You know the N_g_r_ or N_ggr_ word. Its like a “No! No!”. Its like a super duper bad word. Don’t use it! It can hurt their feelings. (as if people don’t knw) However, its perfectly fine when they use it among themselves. You know when they are down with the ‘HOMIES’. So I’m guessing that the only time that it’s okay to call each other N*****s is when they are fooling ard (peacefully) or prolly wasted.

I might be wrong but I have this feeling that one day we Malay are going to be just like them. We might have our own super duper bad word. Thou the history of our super bad word might not be as serious or as significant as theirs but I foreshadow that one fine day (I don’t know when) we could/might/will/should have one! or prolly two!

The ‘M’ word. YES! The ‘M’ word! Don’t act like you don’t know what I’m talking about.

Alright picture this,

• you are a decent looking girl
• eyebrow angle is way more than 45 degree (more of a gradual angle/bend)
• you prolly wearing something decent and civilised (accordin to the malay/muslim context, if u knw what I mean)
• prolly with a light make-up
• feeling all good about yourself

So here you are walking at the MRT platform. You are pretty damn sure that there is this decent looking guy name W who is sooo checking you out. W tell his friend G (G have perfect eyesight!) and G suddenly look at you and say:
” Eeeeeee! M_n_h!”

So first thing that come to you mind? In your mind it will at least be a “What” or more like “What?!?!?!!” (at least).

You can’t explain the feeling but you know its something negative. You don’t sense it! You know it! See the impact of the ‘M’ word. Rite now, that word is just a slang. But in the future, who knows…

Don’t doubt the power of the ‘M’ word.

OMG! My First WordPress Entry February 18, 2008

Okay yah like OMG!

I finally figure out how “operate” this page.

Woo I rock! Totally!

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